With age comes... insecurity?

Updated: May 13, 2020

When I was 27 I took on a HR team leader role. I don’t suppose that sounds overly extraordinary to most. By 27 Yuri Gagarin had been to space, Ernest Hemingway had published his first novel and Jimi Hendrix, Janis Joplin Kurt Cobain and Amy Winehouse had all experienced stellar music careers before joining the 27 Club.


But for me it felt big. I felt unprepared. I often felt like the work experience kid in a room full of proper grown-ups.


But figured that feeling would pass eventually. Surely at some stage I’d grow into myself and find that inner confidence. One day I would feel like an adult. ‘Maybe when I turn 30?’ I mused.


But the feeling kind of never did go away. I’ve travelled overseas alone, bought houses, adopted dogs got married and had a baby, and I still have this weird sense of feeling unprepared, out-of-my-depth and over my head. Like a kid playing make believe.


I still have this weird sense of feeling unprepared, out-of-my-depth and over my head. Like a kid playing make believe.

I remember my mum once telling me no matter how old you are, you always feel about 26. I think I was about 21 at the time and I’m pretty sure I laughed it off with an eye roll. But now, about 15 years on from her telling me that, I get it.